Tuesday, October 25, 2016

dying inside | you don't have to be alone

i know you're not okay
just stop acting
you can't do this on your own
you need me and i need you
just let go and let me know
what's bothering you
we don't have to be lonely
i'm here for you even if you're not here for me
because you're family
and you're gonna be alright
just let me hold your hand
through the emptiness
because you aren't supposed to carry those burdens alone
and i'm dying inside because you're believing the lies
that you're not enough

save me from the tears that are coming
because i cannot stand it any longer
just be honest with me
because i'm just a message away
i'm right here for you
just accept me
accept that i've always been here
but you've thought that you can make it on your own
stop pushing away reality
maybe i'll benefit from this too
just be honest with me
i can't stand to see you
broken and lost, lonely and sorrowful
because hope is right beside you, i'm standing right here
i've always been here and i'll always be here for you <3

sincerely,
allie d.

Wednesday, October 19, 2016

she

she shut her eyes, squeezing them, and the tears came tumbling out.

she drove home, her mascara running down her cheeks.

the dark streets were empty, she was the only one out that late.

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she walked in the small bedroom, and turned on the light, getting ready for slumber that she knew was non-existent. it was quiet and she was tired, she pulled the covers over her frail body, but sleep wasn't all that was on her mind, as she stared at the ceiling.

the sun was rising and the truth was, that she hadn't slept one minute. but her day was waiting, and she needed to practice her forged smile, once again.

she grabbed the wrinkled, long sweater and draped it over her shoulder, knowing that today was going to be hard, and her act wasn't going to last.  But she couldn't show the weakness and sorrow that was really in her heart.

if only there was hope for her, someone who could hold her hand, but she would have to let go to hold on, and she was too weak for that.

Thursday, October 13, 2016

honesty

what if everyone was honest
about their opinions and what they wanted

what if everyone cared
and everyone was sympathetic

what if you gave me a hug today
if i was hurting really hard
i didn't tell you what happened
but you knew me completely
to know something was wrong

what if everyone was friends
no cliques, no fights

what if giving up didn't exist
and letting go was all you could do

what if you were with me today
to stay

what if i knew what you were getting at
and we didn't have to fight

what if you told me that you loved me
and live that life

but god saw something different for us
it hurt me at first
but later i'll be glad

what if we didn't have to change
would i feel better then

what if you didn't say anything
but i knew weren't okay

but i already think that
every hour that you're away

what if no one knew
what hurt felt like

what if life was easy
and giving up was easy

but it wasn't
and it never will be
because you never intended it to be

Wednesday, October 5, 2016

take a minute (you need it!)

push off the to-do list
just for today

take it in and see god's blessings
fix your eyes on how great he is

you'll see the worries fade
because god is in control

take your eyes off the road
just go for a stroll
do something to get life off of your mind

you need it, dear
because you're more than this busy schedule

just take a minute, i promise
everything will fall into place

god's got it
and he wants you to take a minute
to take in his grace, his hope, his provision, his strength, his amazing love

and take a minute

breathe in the fresh cool air
take a minute

tomorrow will be tomorrow, and today you need to take care of yourself

because you are more
you're more than what's bothering you today

in every season god is still god
and you have a reason to worship, you are blessed

darling, you are treasured, wanted, and enough.

you, my friend, are more than what you're going through today.


sincerely,
allie d.

Monday, October 3, 2016

these colors




i'm so fed up
fed up with this stupid act
i don't know anything
and this life has no meaning
who am i?

you remind me that i'm yours
that these colors are temporary
hope is as close as tomorrow
it's a mystery to me
but god's got a plan for me

i've got this
cause god's got me

and nothing else matters

because these colors are temporary and tomorrow is a step away

sincerely,
allie d.